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This is a continuation of ... The story I write about myself in the group I battle depression.

I am a victim. One day I will earn the right to be be a survivor, bug for now I'm this sad lonely kid that no one gets. Now the important part. WHY am I a victim? Well my dear friends, I am a victim of sexual assault. Yes indeed, I was five years old and there were two boys present. I will spare u details, but it was a concept and a part For me too great to handle. Therefore I shut down completely. I began to have feeling of guilt shame. Worst of all I began treating myself like I was trash, gave myself away and it really sucked. Then I discovered cutting, and that's when I started to spiral. Here I am this 10 year old, havin sex (only once chill!), cutting, and trying to kill herself. On top of this the kids seemed to pick on me worse, and that just fucked everything up for me.

Next topic: Bullying

I am really excited to share this with you, oh reader of my blog. I have a new English project. I must do a visual peice on either war hatred or conflict. I choose hatred (of course) and I am doing self hatred. Specifically self mutilation, as I know more about this topic as I do it myself. However I would love to hear some of YOUR ideas. I have a visual peice and a poem, and I'm singin for a friend!!! Lemme know, and comment, like... Well you know!

Laterz!,
XxshadowgirlxX ^_^